projection much?

He regularly tells me I don't love him... 

My education tells me that means he actually does not love me

My guess is he just doesn't know how to leave or he's afraid of my reaction.... 

Truth is the current state just leaves me in constant anxiety. 

validation

So last night after the stretching and fucking K, in talking about something*I* did during sex, said something to the effect of "when he orgasmed on my dick".... Talking about the assgasms I have... Loved how nonchalantly K referred to Beast as "he" rather then taking about him as me myself. 

whore

At least half the reason I'm such a whore is hopong I can find one of the truly psychos to end me... Since I can't seem to do it myself... 

Maybe someday...